SEEKING

Today I got nothing.
And I'm looking.

Listening to My Body

I made a vow several months ago to not be so busy.

Since that time I have been trying to move mountains in order to achieve this illusive goal. I have spent an exorbitant amount of time working toward the realization of an easy and carefree life. And so, here I go moving things around, throwing things away, bagging things up, re-organizing.

I have spent the last 5 days on the couch contemplating the irony that I have injured myself while working toward the goal of relaxation. And with no adequate prescriptions to assist, have spent those said days horizontal and with my favored elixir, the chardonnay.

The positive things that have occurred during my stay on the couch are these:

I have learned how to use the television remote.
I have learned that moving things from one room to another is not the same as organization nor does this create more space.
I have also learned that everything doesn't have to have a deadline. Some things can just get done when they get done.
I have learned that super organization is probably not going to occur for me in this life.
I have learned that what is keeping me from the lifestyle I desire has nothing to do with what I don't have, but all to do with what I do have - and hoard!
And I have learned who really loves me even when I'm down.

I have also found that relaxing and allowing yourself down time is not an achievement but a decision.

I think tonight after I get home I'll take a walk and then watch some Andy Griffith reruns on the television so don't call me because I'm busy.