I am thoroughly convinced that the ‘good things’ in life are not dependent on what must be obtained, but instead are there already, merely waiting on the dumpage of excess.

For instance, services like my land line; the phone chords clutter my office, I spend 30 bucks a month and I use it very rarely. I no longer need to pay for this. And there are the things filling up the space of my home. I am full to busting - why would I keep those ugly pants and that series of books I’ll never read? And then there are activities that no longer serve me, like spending time cleaning up all that shit I don’t need. Or the phobias that stop me from what I want to do.

We are streamlining our house, we are monitoring our spending and we are re-sorting our priorities. It may sound as if we have added stringency to our lives, but what it feels more like is liberation. I can move more freely, I know what to do next and I am so excited. We have more time and are filling the voids with things that fulfill us. Can life get much better than this?

I'll let you know in about 2 or 3 months how this is working out but last night we slept peacefully, feeling that we are at last moving in a steady and forward direction.

I can become dark and brooding and wanting to wallow in self pity. Eeeeeeeeee I don’t like that girl. So what to do?

Ironically I tend to write my stuff for ‘Spread Something Good’ immediately following an ‘event not so good’. It is my effort to move in the right direction as I assume a ‘not so good’ experience is really just one of the many guideposts I’ll encounter in my lifetime.

So this is my therapy and my chance to view life in positive way. I want to spread this idea as well. Not because I’m any smarter than anybody else, but feeling good is contagious. Maybe nobody reads this but me. That means at worst I am bringing myself back to center. Maybe once in a blue moon someone happens upon it. Maybe it will do some good. But I can at least be sure I’ll do no harm.

It seems to me that life is just a series of adjustments to your path. Mostly you veer from right to left in an effort to stay in your groove and continue forward. Sometimes you veer way off and must struggle to get back. Sometimes you change your path altogether. Sometimes you back track – don’t kid yourself. We never stand still.

All the while you are gathering up and letting go. Things and people come into your life while other things and people go. Sometimes you must make the difficult decision to push away. Sometimes you are hurt when they fall aside. But these changes, however painful, are just getting you where you need to be. I think on all the years I’ve hurt for someone or something that ‘left me’. Truth was I just didn’t need to ‘stay there’.

A good friend is a rarity. And I think probably a bore – no fun. When we go out to have fun, and intentionally veer off our path a bit, we don’t want to be reminded of where we are. It is more comfortable to be with those accepting and joining in on the veering. We say, please stay here with me in this icky place. And so there it is.

I am coming out of the dark. I don’t want to be there. This feels good. I’m not in a crowd, but hey, those around me are fabulous.

Thanks